Have you ever experienced somethings as one thing
and after time passes
you realized it wasn't what you though it was to begin with?
As if you had expectations
(as simple and basic as they were)
that eventually just never measured up.
Judging it is one thing,
but that's not what you did.
In time it revealed what it truly was.
All on its own.
And it was nothing like you expected in the beginning
or even in the middle.
Nothing at all.
But in the end...
it was deeply and painfully disappointing,
but that feeling doesn't last for long...
After you move through that space
you realized you learned things about yourself...
the type of things that change
the way you proceed with your life.
It's after that sad confusion
that you begin to see things more clearly.
I recently spent time on Vashon Island.
It was an important trip for many reasons.
Some reasons I didn't even expect.
They revealed themselves as
my time there progressed.
I had a nurturing place to stay.
I even told a friend this place is my Walden.
My art was installed
after creating it specifically for this show.
It was an intimate three+ months of creating.
Then later that install evening...
I slept for eleven hours...
When I awoke
I went for a hike...
that lead to an estuary.
Pre-hike I purchased wearable art...
by local artists.
Then I began my photo taking frenzy
of the lines and textures on the beach...
Until a new body of work
began taking shape in my imagination.
Then went on the hunt for more.
How to recreate some of these textures
with encaustic wax
is my next exploration.
I am finished with my current series of work
This is How I Feel You...
After experiencing somethings over the past year or so...
and learning more about myself...
I know I've completed that series
and have no further need to
spend time in that space.
I will return to this place...
in a few weeks.
I have new endeavors here.
I met amazing new people...
had equally amazing conversations...
It is an art community that
embraced myself as an artist
as well as my work.
I consider the time and effort they shared to be
It is those types of things
that makes life enjoyable.
And as far as those somethings that first appear as one thing
then end up being something completely
you need those moments to validate
all the those good things
that make you who you are.
And this...played in my head...